Thoughts of the day

So, its 4:30, its monday, Im supposed to be doing math homework, so i figgured Id write instead.
So here are my thoughts of my day *all are subject to change*
1) Its been made abundantly clear that I'm not supposed to be happy this week. I dunno.

• Tiu was all pissed off at us first period because like 6 kids had their review book. Who's fault is it that i didnt have 12 bucks untill today? Not mine, so she can suck it =]
• Crazy Kayla- aka brittney's ex of like two days- basically threatened my life if i ever touched brittney. Little does she know, its a touch to late for that (haha theres a pun right there) I feel like shit about it, but I dont regret it (kissing brittney anyway). Thing is, if Kayla gets her way, I'll be dead, Brittney will be hers and I cant let that happen. I learned that I need a girlfriend close to home, that I can see on a daily basis. I fell hard for Brittney, but sometimes I feel like I fell, and cracked my head open on concrete (wouldnt THAT make crazy kayla happy?!) I dunno
• I have my period, aint life grand?
• Im reallt worried about my friend sam who said she would kill her self last night. Its been killing me all day. I would email her mom, alas, i dont know how to get ahold of her, so its futile

2) Brittney Lyn St. John is so amazing. I cannot even explain it. In five seconds, I went from hysterics to laughing? I dunno. These last few days when I was going though the break up, she was one of the only people with the ability to make me happy. She kissed me today, and I dunno, it felt oddly right in a just-broke-up-wht-my-girlfriend-way. I want her, but im not ready and neither is she, nd HAH craazy kayla would like flip a shit T_T. What ever, she can jump off a bridge for all i care ^_^. Its so hard to tell Brittney it'll be okay and work out with kayla when I hate the way she talks to me and the way shes treating her. I just wanna jump up and down and scream I HATE HER I HATE HER, YOU WANT ME, I WANT YOU SO GET OVER IT, WE SHOULD BE TOGETHER! I dunno. again, i feel like I smashed in to concrete half the time, then the other half, i feel like im hers? We act so much like we're together and have for a while. I like it. She walks me to class, and i walk her to class, we kiss eachother goodbye. We'll steal kisses when we're alone in the halls. She holds my hand and my waist. God shes so beautiful, and she thinks im beatiful, i feel so secure when I'm arround her. Im honestly falling so hard for her. It scares me sometimes

3) My dad read my journal, just fyi.

LALAL I should be studying

Ciao bitches =]